... and so i realised / Friday, February 19, 2010
somehow......
and so i realised... my love for you is that deep. That after so long... i still cant forget.
and today, i realised that my love for you is deeper than i can imagine. I never knew that. Only when you have lost it, then you begin to realise how much you want to hold on to it. and how impt it is to you. I gotta admit, I wasn't a good lover and I only have myself to blame. but still.. what you did was truly upsetting to.
but well, its all too late. nv cherished them before. Now, i don't have the chance to.
wrote a very long appreciation, thank you list to YOU. very long indeed...
but i guess. i don't have the courage to send it out at all. it will probably be just another stupid move. Did alot of stupid things... and will probably be doing more. but i just cant help it, even though I know, the outcome is still the same.
took alot of courage to send that sms to you. mp3 was on shuffle mode. told myself if OUR SONG is being played within the next half hour, i will take the courage to send the message. and "suay" enough.. or lucky enough (only god knows), it played within minutes.
while listening, past images of you singing that song to me just keep flashing in my mind...
haiz... when will i be able to move on? like seriously move on???
it's really hard to be just friends and tears flow again at the thot of it. *slaps*
PS: the plant is growing well. although it was really "dead" previously.
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11:16 PM
